There’s one thing that God has been teaching me these past few weeks. He is teaching me to be still and listen to him. And to tell you the truth, I have been ignoring Him.
Last Sunday, Pastor Peter described the generation today as a generation addicted to noise. And if there ever was a poster girl for that addiction, that would be me. I never go out of the house without my iPod. My iTunes library is overflowing with songs, podcasts and lectures. I am constantly on the lookout for new bands to listen to. I even worked as a writer/producer for the country’s number 1 music channel for a time. Music was my life.
So why do I fill my life with music, you ask.
Silence frightens me.
In silence, my heart breaks. In silence, my faults are bared. In silence, my doubts are magnified. In silence, my questions multiply. In silence, my soul yearns for my Savior.
For a put-together girl, admitting that I am broken just like everybody else is hard. A part of me still wants everyone to think that I got this under control, I have this all figured out. But the realization that however loud or heavy the music I listen to is (and I do like my music loud and heavy sometimes), it will not be louder than the inner cries of my soul for my God.
I do not have it under control. I do not have it figured out. I need my Jesus. I need Him bad.
The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD.
Lamentations 3:25-26
The Bible says that when we draw near to God, He draws near to us. We shall find Him when we seek Him with all our hearts. But we have to make the first step. We have to make that decision to replace our ways with His ways. Stubborn girl that I am, that can be hard at times but knowing His ways are perfect gives me the courage to listen to His prodding and follow Him.
My prayer is that I would be able to really listen to God. I do not want to drown in the noise anymore. I am ready to meet Him in silence.
P.S. I wrote this piece without listening to anything. That is a start.
is the Retail Marketing Officer of OMF Literature, Inc. She’s a cat lady in the making whose passions include social justice, good books, tea, backpacking and board games. Oh and music too.
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